DEATH, THE UNTOLD.

 Do you know what it is like to be death? Well, I do because I am DEATH.

You would hear relief, grief, curse or a mix of emotions when someone dies. The person whom you liberated from this hectic world will sometimes thank you or will curse you. Another possible reaction is asking you why you parted them from their loved ones when they were finally having a good time! Cruel, isn't it? But I find these interesting.

Humans are complicated in nature. They show something when they feel something else. I am able to read their emotions and thoughts.Even if they find relief when they hear the death of a long termed bed ridden person, they cries, not because of love or the fact that they are going to miss that person but just to show others. Pretentious and pathetic! 

A wife, who was brutally tortured by her husband finally found her happiness when he died.

 But guess what she was crying  like hell suppressing the smile that she could wear without any pretention after her 5 years of hellish life. Weird! I could clearly see people pitying her. Even her husband's soul that was standing beside me was confused. He asked me whether she loved him even while he was being a total piece of shit to her. I sensed guilt in his eyes. I nodded yes just because I wanted to make him regret about his whole life and as expected he broke down and this time I had a hard time because now I have to suppress my laughter.

Yes, I sometimes witness the most comedic incidents that the world had never thought before. Humans are actually clowns. They think they have alot of time and take it as granted when I'm standing beside them, watching the play of destiny, all cooked up with twist and turns.

Sometimes I feel guilty.

When I visited pregnancy ward a day, there a girl was pleading to God not to take her away from her newborn. She was only about to give birth.Clearly she was weak.But the sad thing was I was not there for her. The baby boy was not even lucky enough to get touched by his mother. Instead of her, I was holding him close to my cold chest that don't have a luck to feel warmth of a baby.

To be honest, during these kind of situations I curse my own destiny.

The most hard time is when you part a pet from it's owner. It will whine all the way to the realm of death. Do humans have the same amount of love and loyalty like their pets? 

And here comes the worst part... It's when you fall in love.

I fell in love with a doctor. I disguised myself as a patient more than once just to talk to him in person. I have seen him for years as hospital is  the place I visit the most. Sometimes I snatch his patients within a second while he will be giving them CPR or first aid. I always felt sorry for him. Everytime I felt sorry for him,  I fell hard for him. He never knew of me. Everytime I visited hospital I would visit his ward or cabin just to see him. But that day....

He had a cardiac arrest. Overwork had gripped on his neck holding his breath. I was there for him. I could see he was disappointed. "I didn't know I only had a little time. I wanted to help more... But..." He told me. I was holding back my tears when I dropped him at the gate of realm of dead. I won't be able to see him again. He will be judged and will be transferred according to the judgement from here to the world of eternal tormentation or happiness or the temporary world of cleansing. I knew he would be able to get in to the world of eternal happiness where I won't be able to step into. When Destiny came to know about my admiration and desire for him, she had warned me. But I didn't care then.

 This is the life of Death! No time for desires, hapiness or life. Just living an eternal life. As you can see,clearly I'm more pathetic than humans.  Living an eternal life is a joke and ironic when you are Death itself. Death without  death....